You've got that kind of: "I don't care what nobody thinks of me" thing. Believe me donkey, if it was me, you'd be dead. Each Pass is non-transferrable and will also be revoked if presented by anyone other than the named Pass holder. He was the person I turned to for everything and we were so much alike. Emotional Child I hope the images fade with time. Ive never felt pain like this and it seems nothing takes it away. Thank you so much. They can be found here https://suicidepreventionlifeline.org/ or by calling 1-800-273-8255. 02: Fort Apache (4.58) Grab some teepee the world has gone to shit! Then 4 weeks ago. WebMetro-Goldwyn-Mayer (MGM) is a leading entertainment company focused on the production and global distribution of film and TV content across all platforms. Wierd. Though there is no reason not to consider a counselor even before that. It doesnt help with the current situation. anita December 2, 2020 at 5:21 pm Reply. I always thought I was psychotic or something. Thanks Litsa for the reply it was nice to get. I had no contact with him in 30 years. Im so sorry to hear about everything youve been going through. See what I mean though?? unbelievably my father in law died on Tuesday of Covid.He was in hospital with vascular Dementia but caught Covid in hospital,my sister in law has stage 4 breast Cancer and I am now having tests\scans for cancer of the peritoneal cavity,I had ovarian cancer when I was 30,I am now 58. So much time have past and only now I see the importance to letting it all go away. Wish you well. Please be gentle with yourself. To lead a happy and healthy life. Thanks. I havent cried. You know I think I've preferred your humming. Like if I dont think about it its just a normal day and hes really off at work or fishing. You gotta gave me as your teacher so i can visit you and be your tutor. What a loony. They both have healrh problems and the same apathy occurs when family calls telling me they are in hospital again. i dont want to jeopardise my other relations cz of this one loss but its strange how the absence of one person could be soooooo present that i swear to God, even breathing seems like a big task and effort for me now. My daughter passed away a month ago. I did the best I could for her eulogy to let everyone one the life of my mum. I am sorry that we are all here talking about this but it is a little reassuring to know that I am not the only person that feels this way. Aaaargggh! Not only did I loose my daughter, but I lost my grandsons. And I am so thankful you get me. This is just so surreal for me. Im so sorry to hear how many losses youre having to deal with. My dad died six months ago and I felt normal (although dealing with the stress of taking care of his medical care and estate), but suddenly now I just dont feel anything. I am so confused. Now it seems like a movie, seen long time ago. Lorddingo2000. I have found myself not sad, but relieved. He died and I DIDNT. Ironically I was even arrogant enough to believe I was breezing through widowhood. My Uncle/Godfather passed away a few days ago and this is exactly how Ive been feeling. It wasnt unexpected but only in the sense that he had been in the hospital for 8 days. I have something similar to this. Im struggling to keep it together most days. Hurry! -She's as nasty as you are. My 3 older brothers didnt respond when I left them messages that Mom passed away. My Dad passed away three weeks ago today. Boy, I am right there with you. Hell hear you. I always try to things which is basically a copy of others. I was ok for a while but now Im numb. A whole lot of dark and negative feelings started coming up for me so I didnt drive up to visit him (a five hour drive from my place) . I am only 31 and dont know how I will cope moving forward without him. The Free Premium period has ended, you can continue to help by staying home and enjoying more than 175,000 Premium Videos from more than 2000 studios, Enjoy another 7 days of free premium on us, Hot Horny Teacher Sleepover XXX Mandy Flores MILF Taboo, Access your Pornhub or Pornhub Premium account, (not recommended on public or shared computers), my pink pussy got really wet from my powerful fucking machine, Showing my feet close-up while I'm being deeply fucked by a sex machine. Last December -2018- I went out of state because my sister was in her final illness. The daddy alarm bell inside me just didnt go off. I never ONCE lost my temper, got impatient or mean, or skimped on her care. I know that Im sad that she died but it doesnt Right, Stephanie June 11, 2019 at 4:49 pm Reply. I have something that Ive had to retrain myself. The good news is that youve already taken the first step by acknowledging that you need some extra support! The accidental death of your son was, no doubt, a tragic and excruciating loss. For some reason her whole life I feared that something horrible was going to happen to and I have waited and waited to just lose it. I really thought something was wrong with me until I found Sites like this. I'm not a monster here. I tried to write him a card but ended up writing a long thing which wasnt appropriate to send. My emotions or the weight, if you will, is much much heavier. I feel awful as I loved him so much and miss him terribly. Kenan Thompson Dont ever be afraid to reach out for help. These posts let me know that Im not abnormal. My mind is vivid with the smallest details of him, but I dont feel sad, i just feel overwhelmed and unable to concentrate. Im in my 20s so finding people to understand is hard to come by. Like it hasnt sunk in. You are not being selfish with regard to your mother-in-law, and I think that just by wondering if you are, means youre not. Sharon Walker January 17, 2020 at 4:22 pm Reply, Sharon Walker January 17, 2020 at 4:21 pm Reply, Jayden January 10, 2020 at 9:06 am Reply. Im very sorry for your loss. I was recently remarried. She was 89 and had dementia/Alzheimers. As I was hugging him, telling him I loved him and Id be back to see him the next day, his arms went limp and his head lolled back. Consolation that I could be around to help in these last days? My mom was always in touch with me in my whole life. I am hoping this new Dr. He was so young and full of energy, active person. Thats why your post has moved me so much because I read in your words that you are hurting. Ann September 26, 2018 at 10:55 am Reply. They lived together and we where all so close. I have posted a picture. He was getting worse and worse and became a shell of the man he was. I lost my father 5 days ago and the first day, I was overcome by a tremendous sadness. I am also scared of losing any other member from my family after this incident because in our religion God says we do not test anyone beyond what he or she can bear and my this numbness may prove to God that i have bore the burden of my father death easily. But today I feel nothing. I have noticed that the last couple of weeks I have begun to feel nothing. I feel so numb and in no way how I should feel. I cry a bit, I feel sad snd think of her all the time but I just feel nothing. Noting that I could not afford the rent and car payment on my income alone. But I do afraid of being unable to get afraid for the losses. Akshay samuel July 24, 2020 at 3:14 pm Reply. This world is filled with all kinds of problems that affects both young and old. Under any circumstance, feeling nothing feels awful. 12 days later another sister died unexpectedly. Since all this Ive had the stress of clearing their house, dealing with solicitors and funerals. I checked out you sight tonight because I just did a grief project (reupholstering Moms old armchair). The grand-daughter is in counseling, I am not. In grief, it is common to experience emotional numbness, especially in the days to weeks following the death. for over half a year now. i have been broken for 15 years and just when i thought i could start picking the pieces again because of him, the broken me was further shattered into tiny bits that i really do not know how to cope with his loss. So two parents in 13 days and still no tears. Your sons death is recent and weve spoken to many grieving parents who, like you, no longer care about anything in this world for many months after childs death. I am partly estranged from my parents. No feeling at all. Its over and now he will make it. 95% of the questions I get asked during my therapy appointments I do not know how to answer, or just dont feel comfortable doing so, because of a heavy guilt maybe on my shoulders. Thankful I got online and found this site. Why dont I feel anything?!? I feel less vested in life after the death of my son last month. Later that night I texted my best friend like 3 in the morning because I was so confused as to why I havent cried and we talked it out. Sometimes grief has to come in its own time, the important thing is to be open to the feelings when the do come. It doesnt help me at all She just fed me, did everything for me and never said that my actions can have negative reactions. I also started feeling urges to escape through alcohol and other things. Lots of days I cry, although Ive tried to promise myself not to. I am now at the point of emotional numbness. I was the strong one and worried about everyone else and still do. as well other emotions and thoughts .. Although, the last thing I ever want to do is not ever think of him, banish him.. abandon him out of my heart, thoughts and life. He walked us in a back door to the emergency room or a doctor was standing down the hall I knew then before even getting to the doctor that she was not OK. She went into cardiac arrest that morning and after 2 1/2 years I still dont have an answer as to why this happened to her. to Pack For a Sleepover She had a few sisters around regularly to help her and my Dad out but it was so surreal to see her fading away like that. I think about him every day but my mind will not adjust to him being dead so I cant grieve. It's very late. I dont know what to do? But I can honestly say I know exactly how you are feeling. Im missing like 23 years of thoughts, feelings, anger, happiness, everything has left. hug them. No surprises that this characteristic also is found in the gene pool. So Ive experienced similar variations in my feelings to what you might be going through. I was impeccably close to my family but mum was my best friend. I lost my parents in a car accident and 16 years later lost my only sister to cancer. I recommend you check out these articles: https://whatsyourgrief.com/traumatic-loss/ and https://whatsyourgrief.com/guilt-and-grief-2/ I hope this community brings you some comfort by showing you that you are not alone. So I turned the knob and the door opened. But I still inflict pain to my body or to others by hurting their feelings. I grieved him so deeply the first few days he was gone. I could not cry. And I guess I feel guilty for letting her down because I dont feel much of anything over it. Weve all been thru hell the last two weeks. Just because youre not crying doesnt lessen the love you had for your father. -Hey, you! I think this trauma was way to big for me, watching brother dying for 51 day and trying to keep optimistic and doing my best -talking, singing, massaging, all i could think of as a way of stimulation. I did CPR until the EMTs arrived and took over. I feel nothing .. Abby fry March 26, 2021 at 3:04 pm Reply, This comment has nothing to do with me experiencing grief my dad has bipolar disorder he has been making it hard to keep this family going for the past three years he has hurt my mom mentally and physically me and my sister both witnessed the two times my dad has put his hands on my mom and hurt her he is hurting me and my sister mentally and for so long its has been going on I dont even know why they are still together I am so used to his behavior now that I dont know how I feel or how to identify how Im feeling most of the time I dont even try to think about the events that are happening I mostly try to push it down but every single day they are fighting it is beginning to get harder to forget about them outside of home at school and softball I put a fake smile on knowing if I even should or are feeling happy I dont know what to do about my feelings and my dads problems I am 13 and my sister is 12. We are all different. Its a way of coping. The Passes are valid for one year and will include the applicable expiration dates on the Passes. For my 1st 5 years of life I thought I only had 3 siblings. Because those of us who have lost a beloved pet or person whom we love so dearly, only we can really understand wat another is going through because we have bin there too.. I want to remember having a mother; I feel like I have lost a part of myself and my own history. No one blames me goodness knows it was an accident but I want to die and feel like I ought to be killed or punished for negligence and stupidity. Nothing in life seems interesting any more and I dont have much appetite for food or working on any projects. I hope this article has shown you how normal and okay it is to feel numb after a loss or losses. A good place to start is to call the local hospice in your area. Definitely in a much better place today!??? You know the whole Ogre trick. I just had too much unresolved anger and hurt. I am obviously sad I am sad every day but never what I have thought about losing my child that I could not cry and just talk about her like it was a movie I saw. Sci-Fi & Fantasy 05/24/21 But in the last moments she was regretting this. As the saying goes, there is always someone worse off. Im not numb. Ok, fine. People ask me how Im doing and I say ok and am surprised at myself. I just want my life to end. I hope my words encourage youthis is the short version of long travail. We just keep moving along even though we miss them but its so strange to be numb. The love of a parent is so precious. My daughter died in early July. My mother in sense, My grandmother in reality. My dad passed away unexpectedly 2 weeks ago. I feel lost, confused, shock etc. So will it be, bachelorette number one? WebDo your own fundraising; Other ways of making a gift; Corporate partnerships; Challenge; Legacy donations; Donate; Site Search Dropdown. brimstone. with little to no interest. Youre doing the best you can during a really hard time, so I hope you can be kind to yourself. I feel like I have ADD now. I even explained to the counsilar that I am worried that I will never be able to feel again.that I am heartless after my firstborn passed at age 25. I didnt care so much how I was. Yeah, right, brimstone. Many brave knights had attempted to free her from this dreadful prison, but none prevailed. You will be okay I promise. If you purchase an Elite Annual Pass, which can be used at other Merlin Attractions in North America, including LEGOLAND California and Florida Resorts and LEGOLAND Discovery Centers, these terms and conditions will apply to the use of your Elite Annual Pass at those other locations, and you further agree to be bound by the terms and conditions of those other locations, and any other rules or regulations applicable to the use of your Elite Annual Pass at those other locations, as LEGOLAND may determine from time to time. Just like that, just within seconds she was dead. Hi, lost my Mom a few weeks ago, on Mothers day no less; My sister called me at 4 in the morning. I dont understand why Im like this. At his funeral many people were crying and it felt like I was in a daze. I feel numb, but also angry at myself for not reacting the way everyone else is. Please be gentle with yourself and do not judge that you are feeling numb. I have close friends that I made through this horrific ordeal that allow me to talk, but not ask questions of my daughters murder. Theyve equaled each other out. I felt numb for a few days after my father died. The sounds of her children crying mum as she disappeared was heartbreaking and my poor mum, shrivelled with parkinsons disease asking to go with her baby. Very emotional. Have you ever met a person and you say: "Hey, let's get some paffe" and they say I don't like paffe. I have not only known him as a friend but weve been romantic together as well. 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